As always, it has been a while since I have written in this thing, but it seems more that this has become a place to dance with my thoughts and embrace them during important moments in my life. I have now reach another, and I hope to make these blog entries rather regular from now on: going along with my resolution to establish daily goals. I really don't have too much more to say tonight i guess other than that. I must simply start make goals and carry them out to the best of my ability, and following with the theme of last time, free myself of desire. I have tried to do this lately by fully emptying out my mind when desire rushes in by a series of breating exercises; when I breath inward I imagine everything around me, alll of God's beautiful vibrations of divinity which constantly create everything, come into me and become a part of me, and when I breath out I image my sould and every piece and partical of me spread over all things. Tomorrow Jess and I are going to see The Waifs, a bluesy-folk band we both enjoy. And, well, my goals for tomorrow:

Physical

• Eat Correctly

Mental

• Read
• Write in this blog

Spiritual

• Pray!
• Be free of desire!!

Desire

One of the most important pieces of knowledge I have come across on my journey of life, or at least during the pivotal two major years of discovery of sophomore and junior years of college was something that I got off of a small day by day Zen wisdom calendar; which is that to completely rid oneself of desire is the Way. That was the quote for ash Wednesday that year, and it fit quite well, definitely God- driven, not that there is anything that isn’t. Well I always had a hard time putting into words exactly what being free of desire means, but always knew internally. Yesterday I came up with an explanation that seems to accurately fit what it means in full. “Desire,” as described here means the egotistical urges of the mind and body. Excluded from this concept of desire are the things that are necessary for life as well as the dreams coveted most deeply in one’s heart.